At the end of my last post I stated that I was “happily derailed.” This proved more true than I realized and as I continued my practice of staying in the Now and working with Earth Energy and divination, an odd thing occurred. I ran out of things to say! Well, not so much that I was out of things to say but I ran out of inspiration of HOW to say it. I became stuck with how to put those experiences into words accurately. For the first time I truly encountered what I had read in other books and research, that the Way cannot be described with words. It can only be felt, experienced. I think I ran through at least five different attempts to write a blog post and each time it became more and more frustrating. To laugh at myself even further, it wasn’t until the fourth or fifth time that I realized what was happening! I finally understood that Spirit/God/Universe/Being/The Way can only be shared or described through our stories and myth. So, in staying true to the practice, I observed my frustration and let it go.
As it often goes, the minute you let something go you often get a lesson to sink the point home. As a bonus, by working through the lesson I was then given fodder for a blog post! First, a bit of back story and then I’ll bring it around and I think you can see how the puzzle pieces all fit together.
Last week I again began to draw a Wildwood Tarot card at the beginning of my day. I had stopped doing this for several months but I had started a new journal and I realized I missed the experience and meditation of drawing a card in the peacefulness of the pre-dawn hours with a warm cup of coffee and my dowsing rods. The first few days went very well and the cards offered a nice reflection before starting my day. Life, for the past several weeks, had settled into a peaceful and enjoyable pattern. Something that, for most of my life, I am not used to having but have recently been trying, successfully, to materialize. Then, on Tuesday, the challenge occurred.
I pulled the Guardian.
In the Wildwood Tarot the Guardian is a bit of a stand-in for the Devil card. It indicates a challenge arriving in your life, a breaking away from bondage created either by yourself or an outside source. More importantly, “… now is the time to take control of your fears and deal with the insecurity with courage and integrity.” However, after a series of pleasant weeks, seeing a card like this took me off guard.
Immediately upon pulling it I realized it for what it was, a test of everything I had been writing about here! As stated in previous posts, what do you do when you get a card that rumbles an ominous portent for the rest of a day that appears to be going very well? Well, here was my chance to practice!