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Disconnection (Part 1 of 2)

Over the 2017 Summer the tarot cards did not like me.

Matter of fact, no divination system seemed to like me. It started at the beginning of May and continued throughout the month.  Having been involved with oracles and that type of  communication for over 30 years it was unsettling. There had never been a time where I felt so disconnected or unable to sense the message being put forward.

It started with my daily card draws. I began to get cards like the 9 of Swords, the Tower, and the 3 of Swords day after day. At first, I was concerned about what it meant. Then, as I focused on the real time events throughout the day I realized the cards did not apply at all.

I remember one in particular where I drew the Tower card for the day. I asked for some clarification on where the Tower energy might fall I pulled the 5 of Swords, Conflict. I decided to go through the day as normal and tried to not jump at shadows. I focused on staying neutral.  Certainly, such a combination of those two cards would show themselves in some way as I went through my day.  However, as the day played out and evening came, I found that my day had, in fact, been quite good and several positive things had occurred.

Another instance was when I drew a card to help me decide on something regarding my wife and I. The 3 of swords, jealousy, relationships ending and other unpleasant things. At first, of course, I was concerned but I already had my eye “on the weather” , so to speak, and so, not listening too closely to the card, moved forward.  Needless to say, the energy never manifested and everything turned out fine.

In trying to do more structured readings for either myself or friends I would get, to be blunt, garbage. In May it was working alright but by early June, nothing would make sense. I would ask about something regarding my work and, again, draw cards like the Tower, the 8 of Swords, the 5 of Swords and the Devil. At the time, I was asking about whether I should move on a particular project not if the world was ending!  Regardless, everything was doom, gloom, defeat and chaos.  This continued on with all my normal oracles I had been familiar with for so long. The Faeries Oracle continued to show me the more “slippery” cards like Topsy Turvetts, The Pookha or The Glanconer. One card would say “Speed up!”, another would say, “Slow down!”

In June, I actually stopped reading the cards for other people because of the mixed signals and general chaos which seemed to come with every reading. I decided to tuck everything away and I chose not to read anything for a few weeks. When that had passed, now late May almost June, I pulled some cards out and tried again. And, again, the same effect. I put the cards away again. I did become a bit “lost” because it was something that had become second nature to me.

To have the connection suddenly disappear is very hard to describe. A reading from a friend over Facebook eased my mind a bit and suggested it was just a period of time-out and that the answer would come. I was not to “push” anything and to just let it be.  I opted for a “Full stop” approach.  I could picture a large ship’s telegraph in my mind.   I stopped with the cards, with spirits, with dowsing.  All of it.  I did continue to offer spirit offerings and to put out a small plate of goodies for our house brownie.  Otherwise, nothing.  I allowed myself to fall into the mundane life.  I forced myself to wait.  It was not easy but it felt necessary.

In addition other things fell away and I felt like a thick quilt had been thrown up over me and my connections. I stopped remembering my dreams. Odd, happenstance encounters with wildlife stopped occurring as regularly. Life became, for a lack of a better word, mundane.

 

The summer months went by and then, around the end of July, I had a curious thought brought about by binge watching “Vikings.” I had the small thought, “My first divination system was the runes.  What if I looked at those again?”  I can tell you exactly what episode it was.  Episode 16 of Season 4, “Crossings.”  It was a powerful episode for me.  If you’ve seen it, you know why.

I then realized, without remorse, that I had given away my first rune set to one of my children a few years ago.  This, however, inspired me as I would now have to start over.  Nothing gets you fired up and into something then having to start over.  My first set to get me up and running was made with a fine point Sharpie pen on trimmed index cards.  Resourceful and functional.  It got me through a few weeks until I could get to a craft store to purchase some wooden discs.  I then spent a delightful evening painting the elder futhark onto them with acrylic craft paint.  It was a pretty magical and ceremonial event with me bent over my little plastic cup, my paint brush and my little wooden discs.  I didn’t even have a candle or incense going!  How rebellious!  What I did do with every single symbol I painted was I focused internally.  I focused on the symbol, what it meant and attempted to paint as clean as lines as possible and THAT was my ceremony.

Within a few hours, I found myself with a set of futhark runes.  After letting them dry and working out the stiffness in my cramped brush hand I placed them in a ceramic bowl and drew my first rune using the new set.

Ansuz.  Communication and signals.  The rune of prophecy and, most importantly, the rune of Odin himself.

Given my situation, there was not a more fortuitous rune I could have drawn which could encompass all I had been through.   At that moment, I knew that whatever disconnection had occurred was on its way out.  Was it possible that my time without connection was equivocal to Odin’s time in the tree?  Had I been hanging upside down as some sort of internal process worked it’s way through me?  As an extra spot of fun, Odin had figured very heavily into that episode of Vikings I mentioned that started the whole process.  As I said, if you’ve seen it, you know what I mean!

Little did I know just how much of a process had been working and what kind of re-connection was about to occur!

(Continued in Part 2, Reconnection.)

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Moon Phase Tarot Reading, New to Full, 1/27 – 2/10

I don’t like to run these readings too far out from the actual date of the event.  I find that the further away from the event in time the higher the chance the reading will be off.  “Always in motion is the future,” said a wise, green goblin in a swamp.  This time I cut it a little close and then ran into some technical issues so that the video didn’t make it up until an hour or more AFTER the event of the New Moon had started.  Bah!

So, I’ve learned from my lessons and will try to afford a bit more of a cushion next time!

This one’s got a lot of energy behind it.  I think you’ll understand when you watch it.  This is the reading that will carry us out of the energy of the Moon card from the Winter Solstice reading, into Imbolc and beyond.  It will be interesting to see how this one jives up with the upcoming reading for Imbolc.

Spring is coming!

 


Moon Phase Tarot Reading, Full to New 1/12 – 1/27

I seem to be about a few days behind getting this up and out to all of you.  My apologies!  This is the third reading for the period of time discussed in the previous post; Winter Solstice to Imbolc.  We appear to have some honest and earthy work cut out for us over the next few weeks.

I am trying to decide if I should continue to keep the parts of my work with the pendulum over the cards.  It is sometimes difficult to have it so one can see the pendulum and the cards and the angle can be obstructive to the actual reading.  Perhaps a change in camera angle?  Do you find it too boring? As always, I’m curious to hear your thoughts!


Moon Phase Reading – New to Full for December 29 – January 12, 2017

It’s finally time for 2016 to be over.  For me this year has been entirely about transition.  From constantly getting the Journey card of the Wildwood (Death), to moving, to re-finding my magical self and struggling with the loss of ole models and new political paradigms.  It’s definitely been a year of challenges but it has also been a year of immense growth.

Currently, it’s the New Moon and this energy is what will carry us forward into the beginning of 2017.  Below, in the video I continue my moon phase readings for the time period between the New Moon and the Full Moon in January.

This reading was particularly fun because I was able to use my new Druidcraft  Tarot that I was given as a Solstice gift.  I’ve wanted that tarot for a while so I could use it in conjunction with the Wildwood deck.  I’ve felt that the two decks together would be quite potent.  More of that to come in the future!

This reading does intertwine with my previous reading for the energies between Solstice and Imbolc.  It’s possible this short time period is the respite we needed and the Ace of Swords energy mentioned there.  (If you notice, both readings feature swords and clarity and Truth.)

For now, enjoy the wave of energy that seems to be coming our way.

 


Reading for New Moon to Full Moon – November to December

I took some time this morning during the cazimi window of the Sagittarius New Moon to do a general reading regarding the upcoming energies for all of us.  For a few weeks now I keep feeling the energies surrounding the Winter Solstice will be particularly intense as we finish up the year that was 2016.   I was curious to see what these upcoming energies might be in play as we peak upwards toward the full moon on the 14th.

To that end, I drew three cards.

  • First card – What is the general energy between now and the full moon?
  • Second card – Commentary on the first card.  More detail.  More information.
  • Third card – Information from the Fey realm as to the same time period?

The minute I saw the cards, I knew I needed to get this written and posted.

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First card – The Tower 

Right.  This isn’t the first time the Tower has come up about this time period.  It came up in the Lenormand for my reading regarding the current political situation.  Here, the Tower is coming down.  Well held beliefs, authority and structure are going to fall apart.  I am still unsure how this will come about but given what we are seeing with recounts, electoral votes and a volatile country and president elect I have to lean that direction.  Heads up, everyone.  2016 isn’t done with us yet.

Second Card – Eight of Pentacles

This was a commentary card to the first card.  Given the far reaching implications of the Tower.  My first thoughts with the 8 of Pentacles were “keep your head down and focus on what’s in front of you, what is important.”  I also feel this talks about doing only your best spiritual work at this time.  Do not let the chaos of the Tower falling distract you from doing your best work with the best intention.  Keep doing what you are doing with focus and intent.

Third Card – Ilbe the Retriever

Sweet Ilbe!  Ilbe is saying that something lost will be found, will be returned to us.  Perhaps it’s a sense of sanity and focus after an insane few months?  Perhaps it’s clarity?  Something is coming back to the scene that we thought was gone, lost?  My first hopeful thoughts is that we will see a stabilization and positive, direct proof that key positive traits such as honor, equality and compassion are returned and shown to be important.

Not much more to add than that, I suppose?  We will have to wait and see how things shake out and what comes toppling down over the next few weeks.

Hang in there everyone!

If you have thoughts or commentary on the cards feel free to leave a comment!

Strength and Peace.


“One Card for You, One Card for Me.”

Since speaking with the Morrigan and agreeing to work with her I had a day where she was just not around.  Monday was fairly normal and the first day in a week where the blue flame image wasn’t prominent in my inner vision.  I spent the day asking, for the most part, “Ok, what next?”

This morning, during my morning card reading, she returned.  I was shuffling my Wildwood tarot and I felt her arrive.  This, in itself, is very hard to describe. It is a simple knowing, a presence.  I feel a shift and the dark blue flames tingle up my arms.

I greeted her and heard her say, “You asked a question about our work?”  I agreed and a simple statement came to my inner ear, “One card for you, one card for me.”  She stared at me and stayed behind my left shoulder as I drew both cards.  With the second card, I could feel her guiding my hand to the card.

So, there it was.  One card would be for my physical day, work, life, family, etc.  The second card would be for her.  It would tell me my first trial.  Fair enough.

I won’t show many of these and I’m guessing there will be several such lessons from her through the cards.  I’ve decided to show you this one because once you see the cards you’ll see just how apt the whole thing ended up being.  It’s also a bit of proof that the Morrigan is direct, engaging and no-nonsense.

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The first card, the card for me, the Four of Arrows, is about rest, about taking it easy.  Today, for me, is very much like this.  With the holiday nearby and me being off tomorrow, today will be easy.  After the intense weeks I have run since September, this is a welcome site.   More importantly, it’s a call to engage that rest, to be conscious of it.

The second card, the card from her.  Seven of Arrows ~ Insecurity.

Straight to the point.  The first step of the Morrigan’s teaching?  Time to dig up those insecurities and start looking at them.

“Start today and use your rest wisely,” she said.  “These insecurities need to go first before we continue and you will know when to draw the next card.  Address them, tend to them.  Sort them out and identify them.  It will be easier to weed them out.”

“All of them?”

“If not all, most,” she said and gave me that direct, black-eye stare.

“Well,” I said jokingly, “I’m gonna need a bigger boat.”

She just stared at me, gave me a half smile and a crook of an eyebrow to show me amusement and disappeared again.

She’s fond of me.  I can tell.

 

 


The Queen of Crows

(This is a very personal post which I did not want to initially publish.  I believe that part of my work with the Morrigan is to show my process with her, to help others to see or understand.  She has told me this isn’t for me.  It’s helpful and is necessary.  To be honest, I cannot guarantee I will keep this post up for very long.  We will see how this goes.)

On Sunday, I took a walk out into a chilly morning right after dawn to have a little sit down chat with the Morrigan.  You know, like you do…  I felt called to shoot a little video before hand which I did.  It’s over on my youtube channel if you want to see it.  I think now it was just a way for me to calm my nerves and to have some record in case I disappeared, swooped up in a dark cloud of crow wings and fury.  (Just kidding…I think.)

Shortly after filming I sat there and talked to her.  Well, I talked, she mainly listened.  Sitting on a log, nestled by some sheltering cedar from the cold breeze.  I was alone in meditation.  My eyes were closed, focused on my inner vision.

Unlike other spirits or visions, contact with her is crystal clear.  There are no “halfway” ideas of what I saw or didn’t see.  I don’t have to stretch for anything.  It’s typically in high-def.   Unlike the unclothed and long-maned Dark Lady from the Faeries Oracle, she was dressed in bulky, weathered, black leather armor, crow feathers and dark fur at her shoulders.  Her hair was black and unruly, cropped short falling just above her eyebrows and just below her ears. It looked like it had been cut with a knife.  On her back draped a long cloak that shimmered between dark blue, black and crow/raven feathers.

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