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Disconnection (Part 1 of 2)

Over the 2017 Summer the tarot cards did not like me.

Matter of fact, no divination system seemed to like me. It started at the beginning of May and continued throughout the month.  Having been involved with oracles and that type of  communication for over 30 years it was unsettling. There had never been a time where I felt so disconnected or unable to sense the message being put forward.

It started with my daily card draws. I began to get cards like the 9 of Swords, the Tower, and the 3 of Swords day after day. At first, I was concerned about what it meant. Then, as I focused on the real time events throughout the day I realized the cards did not apply at all.

I remember one in particular where I drew the Tower card for the day. I asked for some clarification on where the Tower energy might fall I pulled the 5 of Swords, Conflict. I decided to go through the day as normal and tried to not jump at shadows. I focused on staying neutral.  Certainly, such a combination of those two cards would show themselves in some way as I went through my day.  However, as the day played out and evening came, I found that my day had, in fact, been quite good and several positive things had occurred.

Another instance was when I drew a card to help me decide on something regarding my wife and I. The 3 of swords, jealousy, relationships ending and other unpleasant things. At first, of course, I was concerned but I already had my eye “on the weather” , so to speak, and so, not listening too closely to the card, moved forward.  Needless to say, the energy never manifested and everything turned out fine.

In trying to do more structured readings for either myself or friends I would get, to be blunt, garbage. In May it was working alright but by early June, nothing would make sense. I would ask about something regarding my work and, again, draw cards like the Tower, the 8 of Swords, the 5 of Swords and the Devil. At the time, I was asking about whether I should move on a particular project not if the world was ending!  Regardless, everything was doom, gloom, defeat and chaos.  This continued on with all my normal oracles I had been familiar with for so long. The Faeries Oracle continued to show me the more “slippery” cards like Topsy Turvetts, The Pookha or The Glanconer. One card would say “Speed up!”, another would say, “Slow down!”

In June, I actually stopped reading the cards for other people because of the mixed signals and general chaos which seemed to come with every reading. I decided to tuck everything away and I chose not to read anything for a few weeks. When that had passed, now late May almost June, I pulled some cards out and tried again. And, again, the same effect. I put the cards away again. I did become a bit “lost” because it was something that had become second nature to me.

To have the connection suddenly disappear is very hard to describe. A reading from a friend over Facebook eased my mind a bit and suggested it was just a period of time-out and that the answer would come. I was not to “push” anything and to just let it be.  I opted for a “Full stop” approach.  I could picture a large ship’s telegraph in my mind.   I stopped with the cards, with spirits, with dowsing.  All of it.  I did continue to offer spirit offerings and to put out a small plate of goodies for our house brownie.  Otherwise, nothing.  I allowed myself to fall into the mundane life.  I forced myself to wait.  It was not easy but it felt necessary.

In addition other things fell away and I felt like a thick quilt had been thrown up over me and my connections. I stopped remembering my dreams. Odd, happenstance encounters with wildlife stopped occurring as regularly. Life became, for a lack of a better word, mundane.

 

The summer months went by and then, around the end of July, I had a curious thought brought about by binge watching “Vikings.” I had the small thought, “My first divination system was the runes.  What if I looked at those again?”  I can tell you exactly what episode it was.  Episode 16 of Season 4, “Crossings.”  It was a powerful episode for me.  If you’ve seen it, you know why.

I then realized, without remorse, that I had given away my first rune set to one of my children a few years ago.  This, however, inspired me as I would now have to start over.  Nothing gets you fired up and into something then having to start over.  My first set to get me up and running was made with a fine point Sharpie pen on trimmed index cards.  Resourceful and functional.  It got me through a few weeks until I could get to a craft store to purchase some wooden discs.  I then spent a delightful evening painting the elder futhark onto them with acrylic craft paint.  It was a pretty magical and ceremonial event with me bent over my little plastic cup, my paint brush and my little wooden discs.  I didn’t even have a candle or incense going!  How rebellious!  What I did do with every single symbol I painted was I focused internally.  I focused on the symbol, what it meant and attempted to paint as clean as lines as possible and THAT was my ceremony.

Within a few hours, I found myself with a set of futhark runes.  After letting them dry and working out the stiffness in my cramped brush hand I placed them in a ceramic bowl and drew my first rune using the new set.

Ansuz.  Communication and signals.  The rune of prophecy and, most importantly, the rune of Odin himself.

Given my situation, there was not a more fortuitous rune I could have drawn which could encompass all I had been through.   At that moment, I knew that whatever disconnection had occurred was on its way out.  Was it possible that my time without connection was equivocal to Odin’s time in the tree?  Had I been hanging upside down as some sort of internal process worked it’s way through me?  As an extra spot of fun, Odin had figured very heavily into that episode of Vikings I mentioned that started the whole process.  As I said, if you’ve seen it, you know what I mean!

Little did I know just how much of a process had been working and what kind of re-connection was about to occur!

(Continued in Part 2, Reconnection.)

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Synchronicity and the Chariot

I started this post as a bit of a ramble regarding synchronicity.  Near the end I realized it was also about what I was being told by that synchronicity.

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I’ve had the following up on the About page since the beginning of this blog, “Synchronicity is the currency of the magical.

I had a series of interesting experiences occur to me this morning and I realized it was as excellent example of how synchronicity and the magical/mystical works.   Here is a brief play by play of how it all went down.

As a matter of course in my morning, I usually stop to check the news.  Now, these days, I do it very sparingly and usually much later in the morning.  Typically, no more than twice a day.  Just before I do I will go through a small ritual where I ground and, basically, brace myself.  I remind myself to stay focused and to let things unground me.    This time I did the above and then I said quietly to myself, “Lead me to what I should see.”

So I checked Google news, looked at the rundown, and nothing stood out.  Fair enough.  I then went to the BBC to see their highlights.  I scrolled down and then, bam, I saw it.  “New Dead Sea Scrolls Cave Discovered.”   Ohhh, that looked promising! I read the article.  It was an interesting but, to sum it up, “we found another cave, there were scrolls here but, well, it looks like someone stole them in the 1950’s.”  Right.

Regardless, it got me curious about the Dead Sea Scrolls again and so I felt the urge to look them up online.  I found them over at Gnosis.org.   The first entry caught my attention.  “The Divine Throne Chariot.”  This, in turn, immediately had me thinking of the upcoming Chariot card from my Imbolc reading!  I began to read the introduction…

“The Divine Throne-Chariot draws its inspiration from Ezekiel (1:10) and is related to the Book of Revelation (4). It depicts the appearance and movement of the Merkabah, the divine Chariot supported and drawn by the cherubim, which is at the same time a throne and a vehicle.”

If you wish, follow the link and read the scroll in it’s entirety.  It’s short but powerful.

My next step was to research the Merkabah and found an interesting read from Crystallinks.  It started with this…

“Merkabah, also spelled Merkaba, is the divine light vehicle allegedly used by ascended masters to connect with and reach those in tune with the higher realms. “Mer” means Light. “Ka” means Spirit. “Ba” means Body. Mer-Ka-Ba means the spirit/body surrounded by counter-rotating fields of light, (wheels within wheels), spirals of energy as in DNA, which transports spirit/body from one dimension to another.

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I then spent the next hour or so reading that page and looking over the “Teaching of Spherical Breathing: Using 18 Breaths” which is at the bottom of the page. After that I decided to put a spin on things and began to google “Using a Merkaba.”

At this point, though, I caught myself before falling further down the research rabbit hole and took it back to basics.  What was I supposed to see or hear?  Easy.   I’m being reminded to focus on the upcoming energy of the Chariot from the Imbolc reading but to also bring this new information into it.  When I did the reading I was focused on the aspects of the two different colored horses being used in unison to move the chariot itself.  That called to me then and still resonates now.  I discovered a few days ago that Venus was in Aries and is soon to go retrograde.  Again, I thought of the Chariot card and it’s female driver in the Druidcraft deck.  Feminine energy charging forward perhaps?

However, it seems to be much more potent than any of it.  It seems like a marker for a spiritual and energetic surge that we’ve not seen in a long time.  And, more importantly, it comes from the energy of the Rebirth card.  A potent wave, indeed.  Though not exactly timed up with the Full moon tomorrow the Chariot is certainly close.    It feels as if this is something that will happen in response to the Full Moon, the penumbral eclipse and a “minor grand sextile” all occurring tomorrow night.

So, this is the question we have to ask ourselves.  “Are we ready to step into the Chariot?” Are we ready to connect and merge with the energy of the Merkaba, the “wheels within wheels?”

The horses are being drawn up.  The wheels are being aligned.  The Piper’s call has sounded.

Are you ready to get in?

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Solstice Blessings Thrice Over / Solstice to Imbolc Reading

Blessings to one and all on Solstice Day!

We’ve reached the end of the cycle, the interim dark before the Light begins to finally return.  A time for reflection, gratitude and connection.  Personally, today marks the end of my trial run with the Morrigan and the beginning of the end of the year known as 2016.

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Sunrise on the Winter Solstice 2016.

I learned something interesting a few days ago about the power of 3 and the sneakiness of ancient Christians which I wanted to share here.  As we know, the Winter Solstice marks the first point where the days begin to grow longer.  What I didn’t know is that from the naked, primordial eye, the sun appears to hover around the same point on the horizon every dawn for 3 days.  For that time we are in the middle dark.  Then, after that time period the sun finally begins to move along the horizon again and the days grow longer.

I’ve always been a fan of liminal spaces, those spaces of the in-between.  The edges and areas of transition.  for me, it’s where Magic happens.  3 days of middle dark.   Finding this out was quite a relief to me as now I have three days to do the work I used to cram into one!

This Solstice morning was a peaceful, gorgeous event.  I was up early so as to start card readings right at the moment of Solstice.  I did one for myself and then proceeded to work my way to a few other subjects.

When I do a reading for all of you and put it here on the blog I have to change up my focus a bit.  My question goes from a pinpoint to a wide spread spectrum.  The question I usually ask is, “For anyone seeing this reading, what do they need to know?”  This goes for my Moon phase reading or, for instance, the reading below.   In this case I asked, “From Solstice and until Imbolc, Feb 1st, 2017, what wisdom is needed?”

I drew the cards with my pendulum.  I had intended to only draw one card but I continually find that one card for such a large span of time usually comes up short.   So, in my typical “conversational style” I drew a second and then a third card with no real question in the layout.  The timeline stated in the question helped frame things a little, of course.  I talk a little about upcoming time marks in the reading.   Though the cards were meant as a conversation even a conversation has a beginning, a middle and an end.

Again, the power of 3.

I had originally planned on putting this reading on Youtube but, surprise surprise, technical issues raised their Mercury retrograde head.

Here’s the reading and then my commentary is below.

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First –  Ace of Swords

Ace of Swords.  Beginnings.  Mental Clarity.  Cutting through confusion and finding a way forward.  Seeing through illusions.  The first thing I noticed was the landscape and the holly and oak hanging off of the crown.   You could say this card itself is very much the Winter Solstice.   The clarity of a cold winter day.  This is telling us that this Solstice marks a new beginning, a time to cut through confusion and to see through illusion.   The energy is there and we have already begun to see it in action.   This mental acuity will play itself out over the holiday season and will be available as we move forward into the new year.

Second – The Tower

And… here we go again.  I don’t know how many times the pendulum has pulled the Tower card for situations since Samhain.  It’s not quite becoming normal but it’s not unexpected anymore either.    All of that mental clarity over the past few weeks will combine into another time period where winds will blow and previously believed strongholds will fall.  Tis’ the season for knocking things, ideas and concepts over, both personal, political and metaphysical.  Remember, the Tower card typically covers things that NEED to be knocked down and over.  Try to keep that in mind.    If nothing else this is just confirmation that the intensity which has been rolling around us for the past several weeks will be continuing.

Third – The Moon

Amidst the Tower we may be a bit confused and not sure how to proceed.  Fears and confusion.  However, that’s IF we look at things with our physical eyes.  Keep your inner eyes and your intuition going strong and you’ll be able to see the path.   This will be a time when intuition and inner guidance will be key.    Don’t let illusions fool you and remember that Ace of Swords card!  Those of us already versed at this will be able to navigate this properly and will be able to hear the information we need  The full moon falls on January 12th and will be throwing  it’s weight into things as well.  (I’m actually interested to see how the next moon phase reading overlays with this one!)

Overview

Ok, now, let’s throw all of that together.  We all hate it when the cards don’t give us the happy, shiny picture we had wanted to hear.  I know it looks daunting but I heard this with my inner ear as I was typing the post, “Just because it’s dark doesn’t mean it’s bad.”  Keep that in mind.

From right now and for the next several weeks, we have some very strong energy going for us involving clarity AND the ability to cut through crap.  This is very important because we will need it when the Tower starts up again.  The good news?  We’re getting better at riding out these lightning strikes.

The Ace of Swords is going to be with us through the most of the high winds and heavy water ahead.  Find your clarity over the Yuletide.  What is important to you?  What is your focus?  It combined with the Moon reinforces that reason will be needed over the next few months.  The urge to overreact to fears and shadows might be overwhelming but keep your intuition and inner ear sharp.  There are treasures to be found in the moonlit swamp.  You just need to stay focused.  I also feel that it will be very important for those that know how to wield their intuition and awareness will be needed to help those that are getting knocked off kilter and wandering around in a dark place.

Enjoy this holiday season and find the blade of reason which will help you heading into the new year.

Peace and Strength!

 

 


Moon Phase Readings – Full to New Moon, December 2016

The problem with having a blog AND a Youtube channel is you occasionally forget  you did one and did not update the other!  For instance, here’s a reading I did on this past Full Moon last week and the energies/advice for moving toward the New Moon at the end of the month, December 29th.

This is part of a new series of readings I will be doing at every New Moon and Full Moon to help navigate the coming time.  I frame the question and the reading to be focused towards anyone who might be watching it.  After that, I just let the Universe do it’s thing.

 

More to come as I get my tripod and camera figured out a bit better!


Reading for New Moon to Full Moon – November to December

I took some time this morning during the cazimi window of the Sagittarius New Moon to do a general reading regarding the upcoming energies for all of us.  For a few weeks now I keep feeling the energies surrounding the Winter Solstice will be particularly intense as we finish up the year that was 2016.   I was curious to see what these upcoming energies might be in play as we peak upwards toward the full moon on the 14th.

To that end, I drew three cards.

  • First card – What is the general energy between now and the full moon?
  • Second card – Commentary on the first card.  More detail.  More information.
  • Third card – Information from the Fey realm as to the same time period?

The minute I saw the cards, I knew I needed to get this written and posted.

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First card – The Tower 

Right.  This isn’t the first time the Tower has come up about this time period.  It came up in the Lenormand for my reading regarding the current political situation.  Here, the Tower is coming down.  Well held beliefs, authority and structure are going to fall apart.  I am still unsure how this will come about but given what we are seeing with recounts, electoral votes and a volatile country and president elect I have to lean that direction.  Heads up, everyone.  2016 isn’t done with us yet.

Second Card – Eight of Pentacles

This was a commentary card to the first card.  Given the far reaching implications of the Tower.  My first thoughts with the 8 of Pentacles were “keep your head down and focus on what’s in front of you, what is important.”  I also feel this talks about doing only your best spiritual work at this time.  Do not let the chaos of the Tower falling distract you from doing your best work with the best intention.  Keep doing what you are doing with focus and intent.

Third Card – Ilbe the Retriever

Sweet Ilbe!  Ilbe is saying that something lost will be found, will be returned to us.  Perhaps it’s a sense of sanity and focus after an insane few months?  Perhaps it’s clarity?  Something is coming back to the scene that we thought was gone, lost?  My first hopeful thoughts is that we will see a stabilization and positive, direct proof that key positive traits such as honor, equality and compassion are returned and shown to be important.

Not much more to add than that, I suppose?  We will have to wait and see how things shake out and what comes toppling down over the next few weeks.

Hang in there everyone!

If you have thoughts or commentary on the cards feel free to leave a comment!

Strength and Peace.


“One Card for You, One Card for Me.”

Since speaking with the Morrigan and agreeing to work with her I had a day where she was just not around.  Monday was fairly normal and the first day in a week where the blue flame image wasn’t prominent in my inner vision.  I spent the day asking, for the most part, “Ok, what next?”

This morning, during my morning card reading, she returned.  I was shuffling my Wildwood tarot and I felt her arrive.  This, in itself, is very hard to describe. It is a simple knowing, a presence.  I feel a shift and the dark blue flames tingle up my arms.

I greeted her and heard her say, “You asked a question about our work?”  I agreed and a simple statement came to my inner ear, “One card for you, one card for me.”  She stared at me and stayed behind my left shoulder as I drew both cards.  With the second card, I could feel her guiding my hand to the card.

So, there it was.  One card would be for my physical day, work, life, family, etc.  The second card would be for her.  It would tell me my first trial.  Fair enough.

I won’t show many of these and I’m guessing there will be several such lessons from her through the cards.  I’ve decided to show you this one because once you see the cards you’ll see just how apt the whole thing ended up being.  It’s also a bit of proof that the Morrigan is direct, engaging and no-nonsense.

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The first card, the card for me, the Four of Arrows, is about rest, about taking it easy.  Today, for me, is very much like this.  With the holiday nearby and me being off tomorrow, today will be easy.  After the intense weeks I have run since September, this is a welcome site.   More importantly, it’s a call to engage that rest, to be conscious of it.

The second card, the card from her.  Seven of Arrows ~ Insecurity.

Straight to the point.  The first step of the Morrigan’s teaching?  Time to dig up those insecurities and start looking at them.

“Start today and use your rest wisely,” she said.  “These insecurities need to go first before we continue and you will know when to draw the next card.  Address them, tend to them.  Sort them out and identify them.  It will be easier to weed them out.”

“All of them?”

“If not all, most,” she said and gave me that direct, black-eye stare.

“Well,” I said jokingly, “I’m gonna need a bigger boat.”

She just stared at me, gave me a half smile and a crook of an eyebrow to show me amusement and disappeared again.

She’s fond of me.  I can tell.

 

 


The Queen of Crows

(This is a very personal post which I did not want to initially publish.  I believe that part of my work with the Morrigan is to show my process with her, to help others to see or understand.  She has told me this isn’t for me.  It’s helpful and is necessary.  To be honest, I cannot guarantee I will keep this post up for very long.  We will see how this goes.)

On Sunday, I took a walk out into a chilly morning right after dawn to have a little sit down chat with the Morrigan.  You know, like you do…  I felt called to shoot a little video before hand which I did.  It’s over on my youtube channel if you want to see it.  I think now it was just a way for me to calm my nerves and to have some record in case I disappeared, swooped up in a dark cloud of crow wings and fury.  (Just kidding…I think.)

Shortly after filming I sat there and talked to her.  Well, I talked, she mainly listened.  Sitting on a log, nestled by some sheltering cedar from the cold breeze.  I was alone in meditation.  My eyes were closed, focused on my inner vision.

Unlike other spirits or visions, contact with her is crystal clear.  There are no “halfway” ideas of what I saw or didn’t see.  I don’t have to stretch for anything.  It’s typically in high-def.   Unlike the unclothed and long-maned Dark Lady from the Faeries Oracle, she was dressed in bulky, weathered, black leather armor, crow feathers and dark fur at her shoulders.  Her hair was black and unruly, cropped short falling just above her eyebrows and just below her ears. It looked like it had been cut with a knife.  On her back draped a long cloak that shimmered between dark blue, black and crow/raven feathers.

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