For the past month or so I’ve been struggling with the fact that, for all intrinsic purposes, this blog is dead.
It’s no surprise to subscribers here and I have been accutely aware of it for awhile. My run of posts regarding the Glen in the Spring were an attempt to not only talk about my experiences there but to also put some life into the blog, to use the Spring energy to renew things. For some reason it did not stick. I wandered off. I stopped writing. I started to beat myself up by reminding myself this blog is over 5 years old and yet it never really seemed to go anywhere, never seemed to grow.
During the harvest festivals thoughts of the blog would come and go. What did I want to do about it? Was it worth keeping? Should I simply close it down after so many years? Up until Samhain I could not get a clear answer.
During Samhain and more importantly, the days immediately afterwards, I always do several readings. For my readings this year the weather was wonderful and so I ventured back out to the Glen. Even though I’ve not posted here, I’ve continued my visits to that magical wood. I go to refocus, to commune and to give back to the spirits there. It’s been a wonderful, evolving relationship.
With a wonderful chilly, Fall breeze playing amidst the branches of the sun-lit autumn forest, I took to the woods and brought my cards with me. One of those spreads was, of course, about this blog. For it, the pendulum chose the Faeries Oracle and the reading is below. For this reading I chose a “conversation style” of reading. I ask a question. The deck responds. I ask another and so on until the conversation is over. Even as I was shuffling I felt that the conversation would be three questions total.
The first question? What do I need to know about this blog? Death. Well, nothing like cutting right to the chase, eh? Of course, Death is speaking of where the blog is currently. All things come, grow and die in time. It is important to acknowledge the fact. A point of transition as well as a point of acceptance. The blog as I’ve known it is done.
Second question: I don’t feel it is right to shut the blog down. (I actually tested this with a bit of dowsing and the answer was a very solid, “No way!”) So, what should I do next? Mickle a’ Muckle.
Mickle has always struck me as two things, being merry and being in the Now. This, in turn, reminds me of my work with the writings of Eckart Tolle and blending them into my work with the cards, spirit and magic. Mickle says to “lighten up” and to look at the Now and to something unusual or adventurous that is coming around because of the Death card. See how he is facing the Death card? “One thing leaves, another arrives, it’s the way of it!” Mickle says to me.
Final question: I heard the wisdom of those two answers and asked, “So, for the betterment of myself, the blog and my subscribers what is the very best next step to do?” Lady of the Harvest. Ah-hah! Another “transition” card but more importantly this card spoke to me about the rituals involved with transition, with moving forward into something new from something old. The Lady of the Harvest is about releasing the past, all that has occurred (or not occurred) and moving forward to the next new phase. I also felt very strongly that in order for this to happen, a ritual needed to occur. A ritual to help acknowledge the omega and the alpha.
I needed, within myself, to let the blog go. Not to really turn it off, not to stop posting but I needed to internally acknowledge that whatever I had hoped for with this blog, whatever I had been trying to do, whatever I had been attempting to express was over. It was this energy, this acknowledgement that I had been resisting and which, in turn, was causing the energy blockage. The energy for the blog had swirled and slowed and stopped. There was nothing wrong with it. It just was. It was time to let it go and to work on something new.
Now, since I’ve had this blog for five years, it took quite a bit for me to work through the energy of the Death card and that full reading. I’ve been circling it and fighting it since Nov. 1st and here we are, fourteen days later! After another wonderful stroll through the Glen today, I found the words I needed to write this blog and to take the first steps needed. Hence, this post! ( I also had to acknowledge the fact that I began this blog with the Faeries Oracle and it I would now be ending it as well with them! See my second post here which was the reading I did for starting the blog.)
To be clear, I am most certainly not done here. This is not a “Bye and thanks for all the fish” moment. However, things will be a bit different around here. How? Well, I’m not really sure. When the muse comes back to me, when I understand what I am supposed to be doing here the second time around, you’ll see it here. Oh, and the Muse will come back because, most importantly, I’ve done what was necessary by letting the transition begin. (I also have asked real nicely a couple of times which always helps!)
I want to thank every single person and spirit that has interacted with me here. If I have, in some way, added a bit of magic to the world with the telling of my stories and my readings, then I can call the past years a success. I really hope you stay with me for another 5, or 6 or, dare I say it, 10? I also hope you enjoy the upcoming transition.
The blog is dead.
Long live the blog.
Blessings, Peace and Light!