So, before I try to sum up the end of my last Questing Path Spread, I need to say that I will not be doing another one for awhile. I think it may need a label that says “Use with Caution. This spread can cause immense change.”
Perhaps it is because I designed the spread and so have more of a connection to it? Perhaps it’s just the timing and synchronicity of everything that goes all the way back to the Summer and my Spirit Quest? The main reason I won’t be doing it again for awhile is that, well, I need a break! The last two have also been very intense and life changing. This last one, done in the middle of a Samhain night, has been even more of the same.
I am beginning to think that the spread holds a considerable amount of energy and potential which can really drain a person who tries to do a Questing Path over and over again. I feel that the Questing Path Spread might only need to be done once a year at most. I will need to go back and add an addendum to the explanatory posts!
I finished my Questing Path today and you can go back to look at the initial post here and the only follow-up here. I had started a post to talk about the second marker of The Lovers, The Pole Star and the Guardian but, well, I ran out of time and energy. The sheer amount of change and intense realignment that has come about since Samhain has been very hard to describe. In the interest of time, I am going to assume you’ve read the other two posts and I will hit the high points that have occurred since the first marker of the spread.
- I initiated a career change shortly after Thanksgiving
- Found a new job at a location I’ve been trying to get into for five years one week later. Better hours, better pay, benefits and, eventually retirement. The job will free my energy up as well to get back to my writings and work here. I start at the beginning of the calendar year.
- Was led to a book that worked, essentially, like a key in a lock which unlocked numerous and different spiritual ideas and beliefs and gave me a solid footing to engage them all.
- Began the ideas of the book, including it into my daily practice and spiritual work on December 1st.
- Finally identified the Lover’s card on my path and realized it was about something much, much larger than I had expected. It involved the eternal dance between living in the physical and the spirit. About the dialogue between the higher self, yourself and Source.
- Call it the Universe, Spirit, God, Wakan Tanka, Higher Power, Buddha or Tao but I became connected to my Pole Star card and was led through the dark, tangled wood.
- Identified and confronted the Guardian in a very big “leap from the Lion’s Head” (Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade). During it, I was terrified but knew that as long as I stuck to my connection to what I knew was right and true that I would be alright. I think I went through around three panic attacks during this time period. Regardless, I stuck to what I knew was True, had Faith and I succeeded.
And, today, on the Solstice, standing in a stone circle underneath cawing crows and watching the sun rise over a distant hillside on a beautiful and cold winter morning, as expected, I hit the Eight of Vessels card. Rebirth.
I had written this about the spread back on Halloween. “This was going to be a very powerful time IF I listened. A time of great potential. Themes included Rebirth, Love, Water/Emotional energy, Feminine knowledge and guidance.” Well, I listened. I applied what I learned and what I saw coming from the spread. I paid attention.
As I stood on the hill this morning (making it to the location I wanted to be at JUST as the sun crested the far horizon) I cried joyful, gratitude filled tears at the beauty of the world all around me. A world that I was a part of and that was a part of me. And, I was more than just happy, I really did feel reborn.
I was also absolutely exhausted.
I will be returning here to talk more about the past several weeks. There is a lot of change to discuss, not only with my work with Earth energy but with my work with divination tools. Everything is different. I have a lot to digest and to share but, as it’s officially the holidays with family and friends and I am in the middle of a career transition to boot, I may have to wait until the first of the year. Till then, as I continue my conversation with Source, I will share what I can and when it is allowed by energy and time.
Be well and a blessed Solstice/Yule/ Axial-Tilt Holiday season to all of you!